Hello Friends,
Are you ever tempted to ask "why"? Why does this happen? Why did that not happen? Why do I do this? Why don't I do that? I sure do. I guess it's human nature to question why things happen the way they do, and that's where I find myself this morning. Wondering why....
*Why am I suddenly experiencing fear as a real part of my life once more?
*Why am I so scared of driving when that never was part of the experience before?
*Why do I want to just "cave in" at times instead of fighting for my ultimate healing and freedom?
*Why do I dread the thought of going anywhere...when it used to be so simple that I wouldn't give it a second thought? I'd just get up, leave the house and go.
*Why do I feel like such a burden to my parents?
*Why is it taking so long for these meds to get in my system, and why do they make me want to sleep all the time?
*Why do I feel such shame in admitting when I'm having a bad day?
*Why do I have such a hard time believing you guys are actually reading any of this?
*Why?
*Why?
*Why?
I guess I don't have any answers to the questions, so I'm going to just do what Teresa suggests...I'm not going to judge it. It's just where I am at the moment, so I'll admit it and just "be".
I am going to encourage myself (and you as well if you ever struggle with the "whys" in your life) with the lyrics to one of my favorite songs ever. I guess I just never thought it applied to me. Boy, how the circumstances of life can force you to reexamine your thoughts!!
WHY:
For the pain is no respector Of the mighty or the small
But sometimes It just seems so Unfair To see the One who’s had More than His share
Oh it makes you wonder why
And Lord I wouldn’t second guess Your mighty plan
For I know You have a purpose That’s beyond the scope of man
If You look inside my heart You will find That I have always been The Trusting kind
Oh but still I wonder
CHORUS
Why Do the rainy days have to come
When the storm clouds hide the sun I wanna know why
Why When the reasons aren’t clear to me
When it all is a mystery I want to know why
And though down here I may not understand
I won’t let go Of the Unseen hand
For It holds the reasons why
The Lord has never been afraid Of honest prayers
And He won’t allow the burden To be more than you can bear
When He knows that your trust Is in Him
He doesn’t mind the questions Now and then
Even if you wonder Why?
Holding on to that Unseen Hand,
Kara
2 comments:
Hey!!!
Just don't quit, you can do anything!
From someone who has not known what to expect from day to day with my severe hormonal unbalance, my heart goes out to you. You are brave for sharing. I have been cowardly to do so. Fear holds me back from being open, but your message encouraged me so much. Lets be bold together and not ask for healing but give THANKS for it is already done. You WILL be wiser, stronger, more loving towards yourself and others and be closer to God when the journey comes to an end...and the new one begins. Much love, thanks for sharing your heart. Do take it a minute at a time. That is what I do, but always walk and talk with God. He keeps me going. I love you girl! Denise N. from church
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